There Is A Good Reason

...for my lack of updates over the past weeks. Turns out that the lithium my pusher....er, pdoc, gave me as a booster to the Effexor basically wrapped some iron bricks around my thyroid function and pushed it into a bottomless pit. Along with the constant sucking fatigue, the other symptoms of low thyroid function are dry skin, feeling cold all the time and, ironically, depression. This black dog just wants to hang around my mental house.

The good thing is that I can feel little glimmers of normality underneath the black eye-circle fatigue. I notice flowers and scenes that would make an excellent painting and there's a new mental daemon that is picking apart the despairing thoughts and replacing their arguments with lighter, more hopeful alternatives.

I've got the Synthroid (my doctor actually called me with results from my bloodwork the next day), if it works and my thyroid starts churning into gear so this utter exhaustion goes away, my mental state might turn out as something resembling normal