The morning pain is becoming unbearable . It goes away once the drugs hit my bloodstream but I have to grit my teeth and make sure I'm very busy during that time, lest I succumb. I fear that it will wear my brain down to the point where the meds never kick in.

Mad World...

Spike is running a marathon of Season Six of CSI. One of the episodes begins and ends with Mad World.

"And I find it kind of funny...find it kind of sad
The dreams I have of dying are the best I've ever had..."

If by 'dying', the writer of the song means, 'peace, stillness, quiet', then I agree with the chorus. Which to me is kind of scary.