Liminal State

For me: the moment between the time my first Adderall XR dose starts to take effect and after it starts to take effect. A brief moment; when I sat down at my laptop I was in the before and when I actually started this post, after making a detour to GoogleMap directions to where I'm having brunch today, I was in the after.

I was scared when I opened my laptop, scared that I would feel this way for the rest of the day. 'This way' being an extremely uncomfortable state of anxiety, the same felt before giving a speech, going into an interview, starting a race, meeting with a date for the first time.

Round and Round and Round Again

One of the symptoms or traits of depression is an overly rumniative mind. Basically a brain that turns thoughts, ideas, various bits and pieces over and over and over. I definitely posess this trait in spades and it wasn't helped much by my stint in a Christian type cult. I belonged for about 14 years and even though it's been about three years (overgeneral autobiographical memory another marker of depression) since I've attended I still find traces of that thinking throughout my mind.

That particular trip has also left me with an abundance of ideas to turn over and over. Hell and all of the associated theories being number one in the pile. Today for the first time in a long time, I googled 'hell', 'annihilationist' and 'theory' and went through the results.

I don't believe I got any further towards any sort of conclusion but I did find this post, Epicjourneys » The Last Word and The Word After That which led me towards this book The Last Word and the Word after That. I'm leaning towards buying it; I have a feeling that it may provide me with helpful information.

Just as an FYI...here's the other links I looked over:

Am I going to hell? a question posted on the TheologyOnline Forums.
Christians, has anybody you've known gone to hell? a question posted on the Why Won't God Heal Amputees? website forum.
Does Hell Exist? a blog (as near as I can tell)

Short Interval

It's been a while for reasons I'd rather not go into right now. More drama, additional complications, etc. But I do want to provide some warm and fuzzy for those who need a boost.

TamanduaGirl Pictures
TamanduaGirl keeps, well tamanduas. Pua and Stewie...two adorable, charismatic creatures. Although you may want to skip it for a time until Pua has recovered.

Dog Tickling Baby

Uplifting...to see a dog making a baby laugh. Especially one so big.

Dog vs. Moose

Even though the odds are 1000 to 1 against you, it's still possible to come out on top. Witness the little guy here.

Octopus

Can change color AND texture on the fly and is smart enough to sneak out of a tank and escape over the side of a boat. Definitely will jolt your brain out of a funk