Recuperation

I have officially been cleared to go back to work. I actually could have taken another week, but I prefer to bank it in case of a future meltdown.

Seeing as I am fit to work, I called work and spoke with Greg who responded exactly the way I thought he would; he had an issue that needed solving right away. To his credit, he did say he was glad to hear my voice and he was extremely short on help...but I guess it would have comforted me more had he asked how I was and asked if I was okay enough to take care of this, seeing as I really wasn't cleared to return until Monday.

Perhaps it is a sign.

Another tiny little wrinkle in my mental landscape is the continuous revving of anxiety that happens throughout the day...usually without warning, mostly at the most insignificant occurrences. It's almost as if my adrenal system was sensitized by my meltdown...amped up so that it dumps adrenaline and cortisol and all sorts of other chemicals...into my system at the slightest provacation.

I'm not sure what to make of it. I don't know if it is due to the radical adjustment between hospital and outpatient life, or a reaction to the impending return to work. I'm sure I'll find out soon enough and, of course, will post results here