Fire In The Hole!

Thought I'd post in the middle of a morning in which the meds aren't working as usual. Normally I'd be feeling calmly energetic, aware of problems that may arise during the day but with the frame of mind to take care of them without devolving into anxiety.

This morning I'm just tired and sad and worn out. The only sign I have that I've actually taken the meds are a prickling anxiety, a tenseness in the shoulders, a stretchy feeling around the eyes.

The only reason I can think that this morning may be different is a huge crying jag I had last night right before bed and the events leading up to it...which I don't have the vulnerability to go into detail about.

It's reassuring that the Adderall doesn't keep me from feeling sad, crying or other expressions of melancholy but paradoxically enough it's when I feel this way even after I take the meds that I worry. That the meds may be losing their effect or the depression is coming back stronger than the current cocktail can handle.

This Is Your Brain. This Is Your Brain On Electrode Input to Area 25

I am a sporadic member of a depression forum that, among other things, is an excellent resource for articles on new treatments. The other day I ran across this fascinating example ; a personable write-up of an experimental method for treating depression that involves directing low voltage current to a part of the deep brain called Area 25.

The part that gripped me was the immediate response to the treatment reported by the patients...akin to a light switch being flicked on and off. That and the next to no side effects experienced.