Thought I'd post in the middle of a morning in which the meds aren't working as usual. Normally I'd be feeling calmly energetic, aware of problems that may arise during the day but with the frame of mind to take care of them without devolving into anxiety.
This morning I'm just tired and sad and worn out. The only sign I have that I've actually taken the meds are a prickling anxiety, a tenseness in the shoulders, a stretchy feeling around the eyes.
The only reason I can think that this morning may be different is a huge crying jag I had last night right before bed and the events leading up to it...which I don't have the vulnerability to go into detail about.
It's reassuring that the Adderall doesn't keep me from feeling sad, crying or other expressions of melancholy but paradoxically enough it's when I feel this way even after I take the meds that I worry. That the meds may be losing their effect or the depression is coming back stronger than the current cocktail can handle.
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