How Am I Not An Addict?

It's been a while for a number of reasons, none of which I'm prepared to go into at this point in time.

The main question that has been on my mind as of late is in the post title. More and more I've been wondering this, especially at times like now when I'm sitting here waiting for the meds *cough*Adderall*cough* to kick in and stop this pain.

It doesn't help that I have to take more Adderall XR than most for it to be effective. According to my pdoc, most of his patients can get by for an entire day on a single 30mg pill. That same dose in my system would get me, at most, 3 maybe 4 hours of decent functioning. As it is, I take 60mg of the XR variety plus 10mg of the plain in the morning, and another 30mg booster at noon. For those without a calculator, that's 100mg total: 90mg of the XR and 10mg of the plain.

It also doesn't help that first thing in the morning I feel like crap until the drugs kick in and right around elevenses I can feel the stuff wearing off. Add to that the possibility that I may need to boost the noon doseage and how am I not an addict again?