In the last part of the show they said something interesting about people's capacity to self-decieve and depression. Unfortunately, I couldn't find the exact quote but the explanation went something like this:
People with depression are more likely to lack the normal person's ability to self-deceive; i.e. the world is an okay place, people are generally okay, etc. They see themselves and the world exactly as it is; they are all too aware of the horrible things that go on in it and the terrible things people can do to each other.
I couldn't agree more.
Even if I watch nothing but comedies and fill my iPod with interesting podcasts and happy "up" music, I can't avoid what I see when I walk out the door, or what my co-workers tell me. Sometimes I feel as though my mind lacks some neurological or biochemical 'skin' that everyone else has; that it is exposed, uncovered and is vulnerable to any and every emotive influence around it.
It's a painful existence.
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