random thoughts and strange musings

Rather than taking the time to research the thoughts that occur to me, then trying to find the time to research the thoughts, then never having time to research and subsequently failing to post the finished post with research because of lack of time for writing and researching, I thought it might be better to just put the thoughts out there.

Bonus: the tangled mess of my brain will become apparent and I'll have a reference in case I ever have time to research.

So. Without further fuss.

thought the first
You know how people tend to lean towards the creative or towards the analytical? What if the problem with my brain, the reason why I have depression/anxiety issues, is that I am a tending creative that is also working analytical.
Meaning this: I photograph. I did oil pastels and, for a brief moment I studied theatrical arts and wrote lots of stories. I also happen to make a living working with computers and all the logistical, analytical components that go with them. I like doing both, but what if developing both sides of my brain in this manner is somehow damaging it?

thought the second
I saw "Up" this past weekend. It was a fantastic movie, marred only by the gradual onset of a dull, burning, boring pain just below my sternum that did not abate until well into the evening. Since I didn't want to make a trip to the emergency room and I had nothing else to do while curled up in pain, I hit up WebMD's symptom checker to try to figure out why I was hurting and what would stop it.
After ruling out a heart attack, and briefly considering pancreatitis, I found peptic ulcers, which are caused by an excess of stomach acid, which made me wonder if the reason why Adderall XR behaves like Adderall-minus-the-XR in my system, is because of an overproduction of stomach acid, thus breaking down the shell and coatings that make the XR an XR.

thought the second, part b
Alternate Malfunctioning Adderall XR theory: Since I have one parent and one sibling with an autoimmune disease involving brain lesions (multiple sclerosis), maybe I've inherited a similar neurological malfunction or abnormality (synapses too far apart, myelin too thick) that decreases the effecacy of Adderall XR. Or impairs the release of dopamine in the synaptic cleft, which is what I think Adderall XR does.

thought the third
Reading the introduction of Neil Gaiman's "Fragile Things", I came across the bonus short story "The Mapmaker" and this particular phrase:

A pale carp broke the surface of the water, shattering the reflection of the golden moon into a hundred dancing fragments, each a tiny moon in its own right, and then the moons coalesced into one unbroken circle of reflected light, hanging golden in water the color of the night sky, which was so rich a purple that it could never have been mistaken for black (emphasis mine)

which made me wonder if I still had my oil pastels, and specifically a purple and the black that I could combine to create such a purple. And if I could successfully use that purple to create the picture, with oil pastels, that the above phrase made in my head.

thought the fourth
Experiments have been done that show people, given the proper equipment, can move external objects using their thoughts. Specifically the neurochemical energy of their thoughts, which (I think) is then translated into electrical energy or signals. Given such experiments, wouldn't it be possible to somehow bypass the equipment and translate the neurochemical energy into a medium that could move external objects? Instead of translating that energy into electrical energy or signals, what about into an energy that did not require a physical conduit...say radio waves or something else?

More (hopefully) next time. For now it's back to Active Directory security and OpsMgr configuration...i.e. work.