random thoughts and strange musings, part three

Off we go

thought the first
Saw this link when I opened my browser to access my work email and opened it in a new tab immediately, as, given the events of the past few days, it's information that I could use. One disheartening discovery is that controlling emotions involves feeling them...something I'd rather avoid, as emotions as I experience them are distractingly strong. When I'm angry, it's to the point where I feel as though I will spontaneously ignite. When I'm sad, it's to the point where the air feels heavy.

thought the second
Regarding the "all-or-nothing" thinking...I agree with what the article says, however, I find that it's considering the shades of grey in a situation that traps my mind in introspection. Considering all the angles of a situation leads to considering all of the potential outcomes of every situation which is a feeling akin to standing in front of the Sears Tower watching the advance of a tidal wave that towers over it.

thought the third
A single 20mg of Adderall XR has a more gradual onset than a 30mg, but does not provide enough of the active ingredients to create the right levels of neurotransmitters in my brain. Perhaps 2 20mg of Adderall XR would provide the same gradual onset but achieve the correct neurotransmitter mix as the 30mg would.

thought the third, part a
Look up the breakdown of amphetamine salts in a 20mg dose of Adderall XR as opposed to a 30mg Adderall XR.