Lightning Fast Post

Between the handheld meltdowns, work insanity and other variegated craziness, I haven't had much chance to update here. I still don't have much time, so this is going to be quick and dirty.

The Drugs
My supplier has determined that the anxious, agitated, impending doom jitters were caused by taking all of the meds at the same time. His solution? Splitting the dose between two times in the morning. Hopefully it will work...but having gone through this infinite times before, and it being ten minutes shy of five am (meaning that my blood levels of happy drugs are through the floor)....I'm not holding my breath.

Work
I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to find another means of employment...preferably at a place where the availability of a computer system that I am responsible for isn't a "life or death" (and by "life or death" read: loss of cash to owner) situation. I'm nosing around the online application boards of universities, since "institues of higher learning" sounds peaceful and stress free unless, of course, you're there to learn higher.

Other Oddities
My head shrinker insists that the calming effects of the various Snoop Dogg, Wu-Tang Clan and Eminem I listen to are due to the fact that they (the rappers) are expressing my (me) anger for me. I pooh-poohed that idea then, but now I may be eating that pooh because think she's right. Only it's a bit more complicated; it's not so much that Eminem is angry in his songs, it's that he's frustrated...with himself, with people, with the world at large...into that anger. Also the kooky way that he vents that anger. I mean, come on...who can't listen to something like this and let loose a small chuckle or two?

I'm harder than me tryin to park a Dodge
when I'm drunk as fuck
Right next to a humungous truck in a two-car garage {*CRUNCH*}

Apologies for the language. I'm off for another crazy, crazy day.