Random Madness

Some times...okay, most times...the killer thing is the not knowing why. If I had a reason that I'm sitting in the bathroom at work trying to get my nerves to stop sizzling from anxiety that would be reassuring. I could tell my self 'self, you are anxious because of x; once it passes, you will be fine.' But it could be y, not x or both or neither, or the subconscious trigger I'm completely unaware of that just went off. Not knowing the cause, and therefore not knowing how to prevent, infuriates and exhausts me.