Two Roads Diverged In A Wood, And I

Time to take the less travelled by.

After yesterday and the day before's crying breakdown, and the completely random periods of blinding rage, wincing and tender, enthusiasm and purpose and relentless despair between, I've had it. I'm not ditching the drugs....I'm a little too leery of getting rid of the pharmological scaffolding however rickety it is...but I have just got to try alternative methods of treatment because I am feeling worn, my mental state or status or whatever your frame of mind is called is feeling frayed and worn and I need it to not get holes. I need it, in fact to weave back together or get stronger...whatever.

I'm still deep in to Solomon's book The Noonday Demon, (neat website, I'll have to go back and investigate more), and there is an entire section on Alternative Treatments that I've bookmarked extensively with toilet paper of all things. I'm going to go after the ones that jumped out at me, EMDR, light therapy used for SAD and craniosacral massage therapy being among the few. I'm probably going to have to go through my primary therapist or GP for referrals...my insurance is not alternative medicine friendly at all, but I have just got to do something.

As Robert Frost would sort of say, and kudos to him for the post title, I hope it makes all the difference.

Tangential Off Topic: I cannot pimp Solomon's book enough if I mentioned it in every single post I make from now until the end of the following year. It's dense and meaty and has a lot of good, useful information and a lot of helpful, first person stories that remind you that you are not alone in this hell, and a ton of mentions of treatments that I certainly never heard of. Its a maze, but a good maze...you can head down one chapter and make a couple turns into another different aspect of depression and you don't feel lost but as though you keep stumbling across more little treasures of things that may just be the thing to help you crawl out of the pit. If you don't have it, go get it. If you're leery about shelling out the dough, download the first chapter for free (right click on that link and do the "Save As" thing), read it, and then go shell out the dough. Borrow it at the library, whatever. Just get this book.